Mission Accomplished, Day one…

I realized after I posted yesterday that I’d left out a few important details. I complained long and hard about how I was so busy… and then that my solution was to add more stuff to my schedule.

Yeah, that doesn’t make sense. BUT, I did forget to mention that besides all the stuff I had to I’ve been so aimless that I’ve been wasting a ton of time just zoning and accomplishing nothing. Then at the end of the day I’m mad and frustrated that another day passed that I didn’t get a single thing done that I wanted too because I just pissed away my time.

For example yesterday I ate lunch in front of the TV and got caught up in a reality tv show about a pawn shop called “Pawn Kings.” I didn’t like the show, thought the premise was boring and hated most of the cast. I watched four episodes just because I didn’t feel like doing anything I had to do (dishes, laundry, housework). Then I played Burger Shop 2, again. I’ve beaten the game and am trying to get perfect on every level of expert mode. (I cannot get past the damn sumos! Damn them and their triple bacon cheeseburgers with ranch dressing.) Time management games are a guilty addiction, which is ironic because time management is my greatest problem. So I procrastinate doing stuff like that and then wonder why I haven’t gotten anything done. And I get mad at myself for not accomplishing things.

Today I drew a doodle of myself, trying to beat Burger Shop. Today I hung the extra panels for my curtains in the living room and also cleaned up the living room. And with posting this I will have knocked down the third goal, writing something. I’ve made the goals small because I’ve tried this before and failed because I was expecting perfection from my daily goals. This time I’m just sick of being mad at myself for not doing anything, when it’s completely within my control to fix.

Also, a lot of the other things I mentioned… I’m taking a step back and trying to see what I can hand off to others. I’ve got an army of people willing to help me construct buttons (I pay them), so I should hand more of that out. That gives me more time. If I was more pro-active about scheduling my con-stuff (travel, tables, hotel) it wouldn’t feel such a scramble every time a con comes up. I’m also purposely stepping out of a few cons I’d thought about doing this October, November and December to give myself a breather and re-asses my button biz. My website has been languishing and there is a lot of “meant to dos” on the business side there that the constant con schedule has prevented me from doing. Not traveling will give me time to do that… and since that’s all writing I can include it in my “write every day” goal.

Mainly I’m just trying to get back do doing the things I enjoy and want to do first, and let the other stuff take a backseat if it has too instead of the other way around. Otherwise even the stuff I enjoy, like traveling, going to cons and participating in my local club feel like a chore.

Today I managed to do all three things AND had friends over to play Munchkin. And I still have time for a quick game of Burger Shop before bed! (I will get past this level!!) So today I feel accomplished and get to goof off. Tomorrow I’m going to see Avenue Q. I have to figure out what I’m doing on the house tonight I think, so I can do it right away when I get home tomorrow. I’ve been meaning to trim back the carpet scrap that sticks out of the coat closet into the living room for a while now. I should be able to do that before the show with no problem.